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Sunday, December 27, 2009

The Blessing of Life

Just wanted to take a small break from the deployments posts to talk about blessings of life. Some of you might not call them blessings, they might be "fruit of your labor" or just plain old "hard work" or maybe even how you were raised reflect your ideas on why you have these things in your life. Let me perfectly honest with you, everything you have...every millisecond of your life, all your children, all your money, your car, your house...God allowed you to have those things. You wasn't your hard work that got you there, it wasn't spending 20 hours a day at the office (that's another issue for another time)...it was ALL God, you can't take any credit for it.

These three, blessings:


Yes, even this hat is a blessing:

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Second deployment - The beginning

Ahh, so I finally arrive home and we are greeted impressively by those that had to stay back and our families. It was awesome that they did everything for us so we could just go home to our families, I always hated how the Army would make the soldiers march into a gymnasium or something and basically sit there waiting to see their families. We got off the bus, a Gunny took our rifles from us and let us go hug our loved ones. I think we got a couple days off then went in for a day or two and they let us go on leave...I believe I took 30 days or so. Went up to New York and about a week into my leave...gotta call...

Turns out, the 24MEU needed some people to go back to Iraq...I volunteered. I was going to be a team leader and lead a 6 man team in Iraq where yet again I would gain new brothers that I will love forever.

I have to say, this was the best deployment I've ever been on...I had a great time. My 6 man team was Frese, Reyes, Kauffman (Bud), Sutton and Riley. We stood up (which means we trained in the states pretty much) for about a year. Things didn't start off that great though, the senior enlisted and I didn't get along...pretty thought he was a pompous ass and it didn't help I did something stupid the first couple weeks I was with the unit. Turns out, parking in front of a dumpster and getting the entire trash contract canceled for your unit really irritates people...who knew? Eh, learned my lesson...had to pull out all the trash and put it in a HUMVEE to bring to the landfill. Better than paperwork if you ask me.

My team and I went through a lot of crap but I always stood my ground and took as much blame as I could so that it didn't land on others on my team. It became painfully clear that I would have to provide cover for the entire deployment because the leadership was more about paperwork than actually using bad situations as an educational tool (like with the dumpster thing, a Gunny not in our unit did that to me and I appreciated it later on). I realize paperwork has it's moments and occasionally it needs to be exercised...lets not overdo it though eh? We all became very close and looked forward to the day that we would be with an infantry battalion instead of with our "head shed" and all the brass (officers). I actually had more issues with the higher enlisted in the group than the officers. I probably came off as pretty cocky though but I don't intentionally disrespect people, no matter their rank, the senior enlisted did this (with all this said, I ended up having a great relationship with him at the end).



We trained in the heat, we trained in the snow, we trained in the nasty wet mudhole of Camp LeJeune for a year...it was brutal but it was FUN! I gained a lot of great insight into planning and I learned a lot about leading Marines.

Before we ended up deploying, Sutton was yanked from my team and made team leader of the MEWSS team which really hurt our team in a communicator sense...luckily, Riley and Frese really stepped up...they saved my butt quite a few times. We gained Kniskern who was not happy about the change and it was tough to see him so beat up...I immediately made sure he felt welcome...to this day I still can remember how bad I felt seeing him so hurt. It was understandable though, he had spent a year with his team and was ripped away without warning to become a part of our team.



We had planned on taking the USS Saipan and we went for a few days to "test" out our work spaces and living spaces. Ship life was old to me by then...I think I slept 20 hours a day when we were on there (come on now, I have two kids at this point...sleep is precious). Ended up, we FLEW to Kuwait...what the heck...a MEU..flying? Stupid...

I was ready for this deployment, we had been planning what we'd bring and what we could actually run off of vehicle power. Yeah, that's right, I brought an electric cooler! Do you know how awesome 60 degree pepsi is compared to 110 degree pepsi? Oh man, it's so good.

More later...

Friday, November 27, 2009

An Addendum

Just wanted to add that before I had left to go to Iraq that first time, Amy had just gave birth only a few weeks before. So, I had to leave my little one (Ryan) so soon after. It was tough but I was determined to come back...just gave me more motivation. Turns out we had to move as well (tearing down the old houses and building new ones). Our house was broken into while I was gone and some things stolen. Even though Amy was going through post-partum (spell?) she never let me know because as a good military wife knows...it's best not to have your spouse thinking about things like that while they are at war. She has been a God-send and I love her to death, not sure what I'd do without her.

Still hoping to get some pictures up, I know I have some from both 2nd and 3rd deployment. Will start with 2nd deployment soon and then my journal entries from the 3rd.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Life in Iraq in 2003

So, we were running 12 hour shifts and usually moving every morning just about. Very early on it was decided I would lead the night shift. Basically this is how it worked, we would drive all day and by the time we stopped my night shift was on duty (or would go on duty within a few hours). So, we'd get maybe a couple hours of sleep (we had to help put the tent up and get all the gear in the tent before we could), then we'd work 12 hours and then we'd have to help tear down the tent in the morning and then we'd leave to the next site. We pretty much didn't sleep, finally I got the OIC (Officer in Charge) to change the shifts to 8 hour shifts (between 2 teams) so our schedule would change everyday and my shift wasn't the one always killing themselves.

Our first "long" stop was in Nasariyah where we made camp pretty much in the middle of a landfill. As we ate our MRE's, we had to keep close eye on them because if you looked a way for a second it was filled with flies. It was one of the most disgusting places I had seen up to that point. We slept in Humvees, it was hot, we had our MOPP gear on and had to cover our faces because those flies bit like you wouldn't believe. It was not pleasant, there were no crappers out here either. We took an old, empty ammo box...dug a hole with our e-tool and crapped there. That didn't help with the fly problem but tried to cover it up as best as we could. When we weren't on shift in our tent, we were either sleeping, standing guard for our tent or standing guard on the berm.

An Nasariyah was where Jessica Lynch was captured and this was the place we first came under fire. It was dark and I was sitting guard watch at our tent when something very large, very heavy skidded across the street, sparks flying and blew up. An infantry battalion was across the street from us and they got a couple casualties, something blew up over...looked like a Humvee. A lot of this later on seemed to be friendly fire but there was small arms fire coming from somewhere as well, it was crazy but exhilarating at the same time. It sounds sick and cliche but I was enjoying myself because this is why I joined...to this day I love deploying and cliche because your training really does kick in. It's instinctive to us on what to do in those situations, I don't know how long it lasted but it seemed like a couple hours. We aren't infantry and we didn't really have any infantry in our perimeter...we stood on the berms, we stood in defense of our "base". Every Marine is a rifleman...it was evident that moniker was true at this point. An Nasariyah was the critical point to keep since it was a huge logistical problem if we lost the bridge in this town. Those Marines and Soldiers that were ahead of us on their way to Baghdad needed supplies to keep them on the move.

I don't remember how long we were in Nasariyah, something like 1 or 2 weeks. I remember we had some 8th Comm guys with us (they carry the satellite that gives us connection with our computers). At night, there are no lights...light discipline is a huge thing. A small light stands out in that dark sky. With that said, helo pilots and the like use night vision. One of the 8th comm guys comes out of his tent and takes a flash photo as the helo is taking off. I honestly think if a couple of us weren't in view there, the Gunny that came over would have severely beaten that guy for taking a flash photo of the helo. To explain it a little better...if you are wearing night vision goggles and someone shines a light at you...it's going to temporarily blind you. You don't want a helo pilot blind.

I don't remember if this happened before or after Nasariyah but I remember we were in a convoy going to a new location and we had had no time to clean our weapons. So, I was cleaning my weapon in the vehicle when we get a message over the radio that mortar or something was incoming to our location. We had to stop the vehicles, get out and get down right now. I had my entire weapon apart with it's many small parts. This sucked badly but was able to get all the parts in my pockets or anywhere I could, crazy times.

Our next long stop was at an abandoned Iraqi base (I think it was Diwaniyah but I can't remember, started with a D I think). We stayed here for quite awhile and the beginnings of the war were pretty much winding down (believe the Saddam statue was brought down as we were here) and there were no more worries from the Iraqi army because they were pretty much completely destroyed or deserted. Terror cells hadn't really started so there were no worries from mortar attacks or IEDS or the like. We had many local Iraqis come up to the fences and we gave them water, food and candy. To show that we were really done with this phase of the war...Aaron Zimmerman celebrated by streaking and sliding on the mud in our base in front of all the leadership...yes, I said streaking (nude running for those of you with virgin minds). It was a good time, we finally got to take off our top part of the MOPP suit. We got to check out the abandoned Iraqi base and even took a trip to Babylon and went through the museum.

At this point, we hadn't showered in probably about 3 months. We hadn't talked to our loved ones on the phone or internet (there wasn't any at that time in Iraq), letters were the only communication. The phone we eventually got to use was an old field phone, used like radio wire to connect to the network and we had to wind it to get power pretty much...it's crazy how cozy Iraq is today compared to when we first went.

We started heading back now and stopped in a semi-hard base that actually had crappers!! And temporary showers (I still didn't take one, had to live up to my nickname of Dirty right?). The crappers were open so everyone just kinda sat there watching eachother take a dump. At night, the lower ranking personnel (hahaha, glad I went as a Sergeant!) had to dump diesel fuel into the barrels of crap and light them on fire (yes, that's how you cleaned them out pretty much). This was our last stop that I can remember before we got back to Kuwait, it was awesome to be back and we felt like we accomplished so much and this began another generation of war veterans. I miss those times, I miss those people I was with, the experience was priceless.

I'm hoping to add some photos if I can find them, will have to scan them though. We spent a little more time in Kuwait, got on the LCAC (Landing Craft Air Cushion) and went back to the boat. Our experience and training wasn't done though. We worked on the ship and did MCMAP (Marine Corps Martial Arts Program) every day pretty much on the way back. As we got back, we were greeted with joy and it was a great day. Was nice just to have some time off...while I was on leave for 30 days...I volunteered to go back to Iraq (man, I'm a sucker for a deployment).

I'll be talking about that deployment in the following posts.

Intermission - my ankle

Just wanted to add a small blurb about my ankle problems. I sprained the back ligament that connects the heel and fibula in late August. It's been very slow healing and I was only about 75% mid November. So, decided to go for a short "fun run" with the Marines to celebrate our birthday. I seemed to overcompensate with my one ankle still hurting (I wrapped it) and sprained my OTHER ankle. So, I go back to the doc yesterday (17 Nov) and have it evaluated. She refers me to the on base physical therapist and believes I have some sort of stability issues. So, last night as I am walking I sprain a different ligament in the ankle I sprained in late August...yes, this is getting ridiculous. So, sitting at home now with both ankles taped, elevated and trying to ice every few hours.

The LONG wait in Kuwait

Ok, so it wasn't THAT long of a wait but it felt like it. To be honest, I don't even remember how long we were in Kuwait as the U.S. military performed feint exercises against the Iraqi border. We were at 2 bases (or more like staging areas) before we staged on the Kuwaiti/Iraqi border.

Three memories that stand out in my mind when we moved bases to be closer to the whole of RCT-2. 1) This was the first time I got "the sickness" where my equilibrium was messed up. Woke up one morning, tried to stand up and fell flat on my face (they told me I was dehydrated but I never get dehydrated and this crap happened to me about the same amount of time in to my next deployment to the middle east). 2) Aaron Zimmerman when he got up, grabbed his gas mask and rifle and ran to the crapper without pants (barely made it, lol!) and 3) General Mattis as he gave a speech to all of us and said something to the effect of how we controlled the airways already (we hadn't even crossed the border yet) and then a couple fighters flew overhead as he was saying it.

Well, it was time...we were going to stage next to the border. I remember quite a few Kuwaiti's giving us salutes and waving as we left. The first night I remember seeing a multitude of Patriot missiles flying overhead to intercept SCUD missiles and I don't know how many times we had to put our gas masks on (I was happy for the practice but smokeless tobacco and gas masks aren't a good combo...). I think by this point we were strictly on MRE's (Meals Ready to Eat) and the hot meals were done, hadn't had a shower either since leaving the ship that I can recall. Didn't end up getting a shower for another month or two. That's why baby wipes, beef jerky, gum and the many things you see that are good to send to troops were so huge. Not so much today with their huge PX's (Post Exchange stores) and running water for showers everyday. It's cozy nowadays.

Anyway, I digress, when we finally stopped the feint exercises and went into Iraq it was exciting...it was a little scary, mostly exciting. I think I MEF (Marines) and V Corps (Army) were the first units in and were going directly to Baghdad, we were a little behind them and would hold key points to defend logistical routes.

Life in Iraq is next...

Thursday, November 12, 2009

The beginning of the Iraq War

It was crazy how this all started, 9/11 happened when I was in England...I thought it was a movie as it happened around lunchtime there. That's where this story begins, where after 9/11 deployments took a whole new meaning. They weren't the med floats most of us Marines know from before 2001. A deployment on ship to the mediterranean was more of a vacation then real work it seemed.

In July of 2002 I arrived at Camp LeJeune, NC...one of two very large Marine bases where most of the deployed come from. When I first arrived, there really wasn't much on the mind as far as going to war. This might seem pretty dumb but want to know why I volunteered to go on a MEU (Marine Expeditionary Unit)? Because my boss had just told me I would have to start giving a weekly brief to the CO (Commanding Officer) of my unit on Iraq. I figured I'd rather ride on a boat than do that. Little did I know...volunteering for this MEU would lead me to be one of the first units to enter Iraq, our MEU became RCT-2 (Regimental Combat Team 2). We did a lot of the work-up before we even knew we were going to Iraq...out in the field so much, cold as hell during the winter season in NC...not to mention, Amy was very pregnant with Ryan.

The day we chopped to the MEU...we were told we were leaving the MEU and becoming the RCT-2 going to Iraq and departing in January. Ryan was less than a month old when I left, it was tough but it was also quite exciting (little did I know, I would learn to love deploying and still do to this day). We left for the Gulf on the USS Bataan. We trained hard, barely slept and worried about what was in store. We watched the Superbowl (Tampa Bay destroyed Oakland) and wondered when the time would come that we would go into the desert. We watched Colin Powel on TV and the intel that showed Iraq was carrying WMD's, we trained on using our gas masks. I don't think I can explain how unnerving it is to train with your gas masks knowing that...THIS TIME...it might be different and you might actually NEED this thing to save your life. YOU NEED TO GET THIS ON IN 9 SECONDS! It wasn't a good feeling, it scared the crap out of me...I wouldn't let it show though, I wanted to be strong, I needed to be strong, I reveled in the thought I could overcome this and know I accomplished something.

I was never stronger than I was during this deployment, we had a 6'9'' OIC (Officer in Charge) Reconnaissance Marine and a black belt instructor senior enlisted GySgt. We trained harder than most, we wore our gear (flak jackets, helmets, web gear, etc) all the time. It became a second skin, not to mention the MOPP gear as well to protect us from chem, biological weapons. It might have sucked at the time but we were ready for just about anything.

We were in the Gulf for awhile and I can't remember exactly how long it was but when we finally got the word we would be going into Kuwait...it was hectic, we rode the LCAC onto the beach...none of our lives would be the same and the war was about to begin.

To be continued...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Starting this back up...

Hey all, I'm going to start this blog back-up...it's really been a hectic year. What I plan on doing is summarizing my times in Iraq for the first and second deployment. Then, once I've done that I am going to transcribe the journal I kept for my 3rd deployment into this format for all to see.

I'll keep you posted!

Dennis/Dougherty/Dirty

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Sean...

Well, if you haven't heard...Sean had to go to the emergency room on Tuesday. It wasn't something life threatening and he is ok. He just had a doctors appointment that day to discuss some symptoms he's been having. Throwing up for no apparent reason, feeling cold, teeth hurting. At first we attributed it to not eating enough at dinner, going to sleep on an empty stomach and it upsetting his stomach. Then, it seemed to happen quite a bit from sweet foods...so we thought that might have something to do with it. And finally, thought stress might be the culprit (he's always been easily stressed out).

Well, turns out these symptoms are a possible (but unlikely) link to a brain tumor. Yeah, that's pretty nuts. He has some appointments coming up to test his stomach first (seems they are looking for possible acid reflux disease or whatever). Then, he will be scheduled for a MRI. Due to his age, he'll be sedated and will have to spend the night (German hospitals require parents to stay in the same room as their child so I'll be there with him).

I'm not letting it bother me, maybe I'm just blocking my emotions. I won't let this get to me until I know for sure. Because honestly...when you say brain tumor you think death and I'm not prepared for that.

Prayer is always helpful, keep you posted.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Extra Duties

You know, in the military when you sign up for extra duties you usually have 1 of 2 things in mind. 1) This will look awesome on my fitness report (evaluation) or 2) I really enjoy this and am having fun. Well, I guess you could think both really.

Since I have arrived at AFRICOM I have volunteered for everything under the sun. Whether it be lifting tables and chairs to cooking burgers and dogs. Wanna know why? Because I hate my job. I really do. It's at a place where I can affect national policy....but, I don't care. You know what I like doing? I like lifting tables and chairs and getting dirty. I like cooking burgers and dogs. I like doing things where I don't have to use my brain. Do I occassionally get a kick out of something at work? Sure, but it's extremely rare. I love being in Germany but hate what I'm doing here. Don't get me wrong, I think AFRICOM is a great unit and it's missions on the continent are something I hope are achieved and help the people of Africa. I....just....don't....like....my.....job. It's a day filled with super excitement like the following: Decide what I want for lunch, check my email, drink some water, look at watch and hope lunch is soon, upload some files (actual work), look at FFB sites, check email, go to lunch and then repeat all that other bullcrap. Of course, there are some meetings in there somewhere but I'd rather not dwell on those....I want to stab my eyes out during every meeting.

Meetings at AFRICOM consist of a bunch of officers and/or civilians talking about something like they are actually interested in it. I can't stand the PC bullcrap and the absolute kiss ass attitude in a joint command like this. It eats away at me every day, thankfully I have Jesus Christ to fill my soul when it's emptied by utter nonsense.

Which brings me back to my original point (you forgot it, didn't you?). Extra duties. One of the many things I've volunteered for is Sports Council Representative. Basically, I manage all the sports for my unit. It's not a hard job, but it's not always a walk in the park either. Due to my passion and being outspoken...I've earned sort of a rep in this world. Because I ask people to do their damn job, they dislike me. Because I ask people for information on sports, they dislike me. Because I ask people to respond to my questions in a timely manner, they dislike me. Guess what, the Sergeant Major told me to keep trucking along. So, I must be doing something right. That something right is acting like a Marine. Anyone else would just roll over and die. Anyone else would just say it doesn't matter. Anyone else would say, "I'm not getting paid for this crap". Sorry, that's not me. I will fight, for the right....to party! Ok, sorry off subject. I will fight when I believe I've been wronged. These people (people that work for Morale, Welfare and Recreation) don't give a crap about anything other than themselves. They want to make a name for themselves, they want to earn bonuses, they want to be popular. I just ask for people to be fair. If you are going to answer one persons emails, answer mine. If you are going to allow a rule for one team, allow it for all teams.

I know a lot of this doesn't make sense to someone just reading it without knowing the background but I think you can get something out of it. I just needed to get it off my chest. Although, my whole command pretty much knows where I stand on things and it's not much of a secret....so, I guess I've gotten off my chest already.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Random Thoughts

Life has been a little calmer. But, I have finally started back at work and the newborn is still a newborn lol.

President-Elect Obama, first black President...it really is unbelievable and historic. No matter he is a democrat, he's still an American and he will be my Commander-in-Chief. I will give him a chance and will always follow his orders (unless he goes against God, but I don't see that happening...to the extent I'm thinking of). He has talked about doing away with the "don't ask, don't tell" policy in the military. I think it's a huge mistake and I'll explain why. I'm not a hate mongering Christian bent on the destruction of all homosexuals. But, I will say that homosexuality is not natural, it's not a disease and it's you are not born with it. We are all born sinners and at a certain point in our lives, we become susceptible to a certain sin. Whether it be lying, swearing, homosexuality, adultery, etc. Homosexuals are not Godless people, they aren't forever damned to hell. They can be saved just as any of us can be, by the blood of Jesus Christ. He died for all. But, putting aside sin or not a sin...openly gay serivce members actually pose a threat to themselves and to the entire cohesion of a unit in the military. I guess if the gay community wants more soldiers, sailors, airman and Marines to die in combat then sure go ahead and protest about the don't ask, don't tell policy. There is a reason there isn't co-ed showers anywhere. There is a reason there aren't females allowed in infantry units (at least in the Marine Corps). It effects morale and cohesion of the unit. It would have a negative psychological impact on our military. And those of you out there that are in favor say "Well, I guess they better just learn to deal with it!". Oh, so now WE have to deal with it?! WE have to change because others live a life of sin? No, the world doesn't change for liars, for adulterers...and it shouldn't change for homosexuals. I hear the argument that being gay is like being black. That is the biggest crock I have ever heard, you CAN change how you behave sexually. You CAN'T change the color of your skin. If you somehow think you CAN'T change how you behave sexually then you are weak and haven't tried hard enough. Will you have setbacks? Yes. Will you get discouraged? Yes. Do you think those of us that do get saved stop lying on the stop? Or stop swearing? Or stop drinking alcohol? Not entirely. But, what you do get is the Holy Spirit inside of you. And then you start to say to yourself "Am I doing the right thing?" It's called a conscience, most of us do have it but to a saved person...that is the voice Holy Spirit telling you it's wrong and you shouldn't do it. I wish gay people the best in life and I hope they get all of the rights we have. But, I would hope they find Jesus and see the despicable ways of their life. Are we not all sinners? We are, I am, you are...don't force me to change my lifestyle because of your sins though.

Drinking alcohol. It seems to me that many evangelical independent baptists are against even a little bit of alcohol. But, I disagree with this. I belive the Bible talks about drunkards and drunkenness as being sins. But, I have yet to find anything about drinking alcohol at all. Small amounts of alcohol with dinner seems harmless and not a sin to me. Now, I understand that some people would just not want to have the temptation there and totally ban it from their house/body so as not to get drunk. I think having alcohol in the house and NOT getting drunk is actually a good test. But, it's definitely something that could be argued until you're blue in the face.